Before getting into the nitty-gritty of this post, I think some thanks are in order.
My life as I knew it has been flipped every which way in recent weeks, namely due to my participation in the Jubilee Project Fellowship. But I wanted to thank everyone who made it possible first.
As an unemployed, essentially non-functioning member of society, the price/tuition of the fellowship was not something I would be able to cover by myself, even if that was my original intention. So, with faith and a lot of self-reflection, I decided I was not too good for a GoFundMe campaign. Within a day, I was able to fully pay the fellowship fees. This stunned me and shook me to my core. From my perspective, it was utterly irresponsible to fund me, who was essentially going to fly to LA to make a passion project. Doesn't make sense. And yet, it made sense to many people. I was floored by everything that happened then, and so I want to thank everyone who supported me either financially, verbally, or both. I hope I can communicate what an amazing experience you've left me with, and that I can pay that forward in the future.
There are so many things that I could talk about. I've been told I ramble quite a bit, which made it especially difficult to pick just one, but I did it. There's one thing that stands out to me more than anything else about the fellowship, and it's this: we made a family.
Having been about a week removed from it, I find myself still coming back to that fleeting moment where 14 of us (+team leaders) gathered in a single house and created something together that transcended any short film or movie we will ever make. I will stand by and defend that statement for as long as I live.
People will tell you that family is only by blood, and that other people will come and go. If you believe that, then so be it; but if you ask me, I'm confident in the falsity of that statement. If the only people you can call "family" are people related to you by blood, then I'm not entirely sure I want that. You can prove me wrong later, but I'm 100% on this right now.
That's it. That's all I'm going to say. Vague, I know, but ask me more and I will be very happy to oblige you with answers and discussion!
This is the scary part, I suppose. One hour after I landed in Chicago, I went off to my first day of work at a new full-time job. I have expressed this to some, but the biggest point of fear here is that I know absolutely nothing about what I've just gotten myself into. And the worst part? I'm not sure if my passions will stay alive.
But the point is, I now have one of, if not the strongest support systems in the world, and that is the family we've created. So, with all that being said, I suppose this is more of an encouragement than anything else, because I want us all to realize we have each others' backs. For me, one of the things I hate most is asking for help or asking for advice. Yet, in the past 2 months, I've thrown my pride away on several occasions and have seen and heard wonderful things from other people around me. I like that. Keep it up.
One of the things I have mentioned most to people is my desire to keep pursuing this... whatever it is for as long as I can, and in my own way. In an effort to do so, I hope to write at least 1/2 or 1 page of a script OR draw a picture every day, for as long as I can. Every once in a while, like today, a blog post will count as writing. What? I made the rules, I will also make the loopholes. Deal with it.
This is especially directed towards my fellow Jubilee Project cohorts:
- What are your goals post-fellowship?
- And what can we do to support you?
I want to knowww
PEACE OUT. MATES.